Life is one crazy ride, make it amazing!

So many changes…..new adventures…..

     A year ago if someone told me my life was going to change so dramatically,  I would have laughed. Things needed to change a long time ago! First off, Conner is medication and seizure free! I count my blessings every day that he no longer suffers. I am now divorced and I feel like 1000 pounds have been lifted off of my shoulder. This whole process didn't come without a lot of critical input from others.

     In the beginning everyone that I was around every day knew how tired and stressed I was. It’s no fun coming home to a house when you no longer consider it your home, when you are there and you feel like you don’t know the person you married anymore. Things change and people change. I tried as  long as I could and then when he was ready to try, I gave up and I know now that I made the right decision. If actions speak louder than words than his actions say a lot! Now I wake up and I can breathe, and although I am faced with many challenges, my day always begins with a smile. They say you always take away something from each situation in life, this time I have my kids, and the knowledge of what both of us did wrong. It wasn't a one-sided problem, it takes both people realizing their mistakes and being able to face them together.

     In a couple of weeks I leave Kansas to start a new chapter in my life. I am terrified, excited, nervous, and extremely happy! My kids are also excited which makes the whole process so much easier!  You think you know what love is….and then you meet that one person who makes you realize you had the whole concept wrong! (Maybe I am learning with age J) It’s amazing how one person can make you feel so incredibly loved, like you are the most important person to them. I don't know how many times a day I see something and I think that I wish he was here to share this with me. How he just accepts my kids and is amazingly wonderful with them. All of those small thoughtful things add up to be something incredibly special. When it was raining and he switched me sides on the bleachers so I wouldn't get so wet, pulling over in crazy city traffic because I was a nervous wreck, and leaving my car parked, 8 hour phone conversations, long distance date nights….so many things! If you hadn't guessed it I am head-over-heels in love………….life is definitely a journey!


Update: I have been Iowa for 2 years and I love it! I miss my old friends but I am making new friends. I am still head over heels with that crazy boy, and our relationship has never been stronger! We have had a few rough patches but we talk. I admit when I am wrong, that becomes less painful each time! He is amazing with the boys and I love our little family!